Saturday, March 18, 2006

burning a bridge

7 years ago i finished my college. college life was hard. not cause of the work, but because of the school i attended. it was a very legalistic school. i was not a model student of southland. i listened to christian music with a drum beat. i went to a public high school. i went to dances. i didn't part my hair. i also loved sinners. i made it through, but there were a lot of emotional scars left. it took years for me to even go back there to visit. i would never tell someone to look at the school, but it still had a special place in my heart.
yesterday the school sent out a news letter. it talked about the former students who have went on to server God in the ministry. there were a lot of names. ones that i had went to school with. there were even some of my co-workers. yet i didn't see my name. i am in the full time ministry. it didn't really bother me at first, but the more people talked about it.. it hurt. i saw a the "music" teacher at a funeral. what a place to see her.. one of my friends brought it up. the teacher looked at me and said "oh please, did you really think that they would put you on that list? " i was shocked. " think of your attitude." i couldn't believe this. i was cut from the list because i did not buy into the fake salvation that they teach. i didn't believe their truths. the laws that they believed made them stronger.
i am hurt, but i am free. one way i believe to truely become free would be to burn this bridge. i have no need for this college nor the people there. i just pray that i never become the christian to cause pain.

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